Wednesday, April 20, 2005

and the fat lady sang

i'm done with my thesis. a whole day early which is impressive since this is the first time ever that i have finished a paper or anything at princeton without significant work on an all nighter!

i also got promoted at the squad and that combined with other wonderful personal news is so exciting. it must explain why i cant sleep despite having had only 3 hours of sleep for the past 48 hours.

wow... expect more cooler posts soon. cuz i have the time like that now

Thursday, April 14, 2005

altruism?

so this complex opinion is based on long conversation with a friend - i'll call him hosehumper.

are their truly altruistic people? or do people get drawn to what their interests are?

thus, if it is exciting and adrenaline pumping for me to respond and participate at a vehicle rescue, does the fact that someone got helped in the process matter? it makes me self-conscious and i know it makes others as well. i know that many of the people on my squad when thanked by someone - whether it be a patient, family member or bystander - immediately reply, its our job, but the ironic thing is that we are volunteers in our positions. in fact, i would argue that i get more out of my volunteering from the sheer excitement from the calls than another volunteer may get from tutoring kids for free. but then to complicate this opinion further, is part of the excitement the joy of helping people? the knowledge that i have assisted families in crisis situations or acted quickly to "save" someone's life is part of the adrenaline high that i appear to covet so much.

and are we adrenaline junkies the good people to do this job? i know i have fought disengagement from people especially after codes or DOAs. its too easy to remove the humanity from the patient. or talk about a good cut job despite the fact that someone was seriously injured as a result of the accident. and i recognize it is hard to do. it is hard to treat every patient with caring and compassion especially if they are frequent fliers of the system. another complication is how do you help or care for people with whom you have such a short interaction with. moreover, that interaction is defined and usually limited to one incident or a complaint.

i know this is a difficult question to consider but i would appreciate thoughts on the matter.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005


so the big bad Rescue company had its 6th cut job for the year today. thats 7 cars cut total. i didnt get to play on this one since i got diverted to another call. i got to use a little bit of my japanese. (I edited this post due to self consciousness - please see my next post which will be on emergency services). Posted by Hello

and the sun comes up

i sit here after an all nighter on my thesis. i definitly made a significant amount of progress tonite and i am currently outlining my discussion section. i'll email over to feng, my post doc, around breakfast time, and find my way to a bed. i feel like skipping of my classes is in order.

[cool link] (though i have a feeling that no one clicks on these)

Army's Future Combat Systems

this brings you to the homepage of the Army's vision for the future of combat and army structure. its extremely fascinating. read about the vehicles first and then view the scenarios (on the right hand side) to grasp what the concept is. the question is whether this fighting force could match up in the field with an army with more armor and fire power. i'd love to discuss that with you.

for a counter view - read Arthur C Clarke (the great SciFi writer)'s short story "Superiority" in which he details the loss of a scientifically advanced nation to an inferior one.

[whats next for today]
well since today is still yesterday for me, i'll probably grab some sleep, meet with my post-doc later in the afternoon, and do some more thesis all-staring tonite.

the sunrise is beautiful in the morning...so i will depart to quad's scenic porch for some typing time.

Saturday, April 09, 2005

a wish come true

so the squad had its 5th vehicle rescue for the year today - the 7th since december. to give perspective - last year total we had 5 or 6 cut jobs including the 2 in december. throw in the 2 fires in january and it kinda makes our rescue company feel all big and bad.

i unfortunately did not make the truck on this one but i still made it to the scene and helped board and collar a BLS patient. i got to take the SS 168 for the ride of its life. the fire department photographer grabbed some pics - it was a pickup truck on its side - so they did an A post cut and a roof cut to get him out.

really all i need is one big taskforce call to round out my rescue experience or just drive. either way.

[cool link]
Battlestar Galactica (the New Series) is quite possibly the best scifi show ever! i'm a closeted sci fi geek - a big trekkie, flirted with Star Wars and enjoy the futuristic worlds created. so far Battlestar Galactic has everything i want - the overarching plot that draws the episodes together, the compelling characters, cool effects, great technology. to give you a sense of the story - the 12 Colonial worlds are destroyed by the Cylons, machines they created. all that is left is the education secretary, a ragtag fleet of ships, and the oldest battlestar - without advanced computer technology to prevent the cylons from penetrating their computers - of the fleet. with the battlefleet destroyed in a surprise computer attack and all the worlds destroyed - the education secretary and the commander (not even an admiral) gather the ragtag fleet and take them on a search for another world to rebuild. all the while they must deal with trying to recreate some form of government, fend off the Cylon's chasing them, and just deal with the stress of a post-apocalyptic world. i highly recommend it.

check out Battlestar Galactica on Sci Fi

at the site you can even watch the first episode. but the show began with a miniseries - so rent that first if you want to get into it. the best part about the website is the producers blog where he answers fan's questions.

[whats next for today]
thesis thesis thesis. i hope to have a full draft done by monday meaning a lot of work between now and then.

Friday, April 08, 2005

the ROTC debate

reference at Daily Princetonian

Of my many arguments – First, we, as Americans, must judge our military differently than any ordinary student program at Princeton. One need only peruse the Uniform Code of Military Justice to recognize a) the differences between military law and civilian law and b) the widespread number of infractions for military personnel that are considered commonplace in the civilian world. My example is the harsh judgment against adultery that, for better or worse, is allowed in the United States.

Second, the policy is wrong. It does discriminate. But the military discriminates in many other realms as well – abuses that we choose quietly to ignore because we judge our military as a necessary evil. Primary among this – is our military KILLS people. Our soldiers who return from overseas often have ended lives. Is this right? Or during Vietnam – the draft drew primarily the poor and minority with exceptions for students, like us, to avoid military service – a policy that was supported by many. In fact, last year, politicos tarnished the reputation of a Yale graduate who served in an active duty combat role while supporting a Yale graduate who used his father’s connections to serve in the National Guard. Here’s more, women are not allowed to serve in combat units. Why isn’t anyone protesting this – don’t we say that women can do anything a man can do? Let me keep going, the military gives you orders that you must follow in regards to where you live, what your specialty is, and who you may associate with (i.e. a commanding officer is not allowed to have relationships with an enlisted solider in their command). No such rules are in place in corporate America. How about women not being required to register for the selective service. All males over the age of 18 are required to enter and update the selective service. Thus, if there were a draft – these would be the draftees. I do not see anyone fighting or arguing against changing this with the same passion. I’m not saying that we should ignore the discrimination – but, added with my following arguments, we should judge how we fight against it. We should not fight against it on campus against ROTC but maybe in Washington.

Third, how do we deal with members of discriminatory groups. Should we only accept students from states that do not discriminate against homosexuals by allowing them to marry. Those applicants from states with marriage amendments may not have voted or supported the amendment, but they are citizens of a state that do not allow homosexuals to be who they are – a form of discrimination as argued by many. I believe that is akin to banning students from participating in a program that discriminates.

And yes – I recognize that I am inconsistent, but you have to be inconsistent to truly enact change. Sometimes you have to sacrifice your ideals for reality. You know that wonderful emancipation proclamation issued by Lincoln during the War of Northern Aggression – it only applied to states in the confederacy and not the slave holding states in the North. Or how about our Constitution and founding fathers – they fought over a compromise regarding the issue of slavery (the 3/5th’s compromise) because they viewed the establishment of a united nation as paramount. If we are truly trying to champion against the DADT policy – then we shouldn’t let students at Princeton participate in the military at all – that’s right – lets just cut them off totally. Trying to remain consistent then makes no sense and one must fight the battles they can. The original DADT policy was a compromise just as Bush’s embryonic stem cell policy was a compromise. Compromises don’t make everyone happy, but everyone CAN work with it for a short time.

Fourth – Princeton, as far as I understand, provides NO support other than campus access to ROTC. The same access it provides to military recruiters. None of your tuition dollars go to it!!! The Army pays for offices, salaries for the commissioned and non-commissioned cadre (instructors), scholarships (wonderful full ride scholarships that offer many the chances to attend Princeton that would not have had it), and money for all training. Thus, if we were to limit campus access for ROTC – shouldn’t we limit access to all those with hands in the discriminatory policy – Presidents Bush and Clinton, Donald Rumsfield, Gen. Wesley Clark, etc. In fact, preventing the higher officials with decision-making power from coming onto campus gives us more clout then stopping students from the ability to serve in the military. Of course, this is ridiculous and makes no sense. We value our ability to LEARN from the organizations and people we would ban just as our ROTC students LEARN through their leadership training.

Fifth, ROTC is about service. The men and women entering the military as officers must serve. Yes, they do lead – initially only about 20 and at the later end of their 4 years about 100 – enlisted soldiers, but they receive their orders and follow them. I believe it is important that our future leaders, as many Princetonians are, should sometimes follow so that one day they can lead. How can a man order young soldiers to fight and possibly DIE without saying that they were once in a similar position?

The armed forces and ROTC is also fundamentally different than any other student organization. How many other organizations (such as AASA, Quad, the CJL, the Tory) have 100% of its graduates finding themselves in a position where they may patrol the DMZ in Korea? Or keep the peace in Kosovo and Bosnia? Provide humanitarian relief in countries devastated by the tsunami? Attack and dismantle Al Qaeda? Or DIE FOR THEIR COUNTRY?

This does not make the armed forces above rebuke – but it also has to change our tactics against a discriminatory policy. Instead of banning ROTC, maybe we should lobby against the policy in Washington, vote, write letters, and individually choose not to serve. But to openly ban an organization dedicated to providing officers for the defense of our country shows that we have no regard for our future safety. I honestly feel safer knowing that people as bright and intelligent as those in our ROTC program will be leading our troops.

I am as always available to chat about this.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

what to post or what not to post

i have learned from reading others posts that it borders on retarded to call out specific people or write controversial comments. i may compliment people as much as my nature allows me and post free thoughts on my own actions - i will refrain from making this a gossip column or a trash column.

[cool link]
for all whackers (emergency services folk) out there
check out Only Red Trucks
its a website run by a great whacker with photography and video experience who videotapes the fire departments of his area (somewhere in illinois). the departments are solid.

[whats next today?]
tonite is the 3 hour ABC marathon. JJ Abrams has Lost followed Alias and then the new show - Eyes. All shows are solid and exciting - sufficient distraction from my thesis. but i should also write the thesis too.

(cue trumpets)
[high horse time]
(cue horns)
this is where i wax philosophically or make some argument.
but not today...

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

il pope watch 2005

this is exciting. i know its sad that JP the second passed away. he was a motivated leader and truly led the church till the moment of his death. but as all things - new leadership can be reinvigorating. there are aspects to the church that need to be bolstered. JP II played a significant role in politics and sexual morality - lost in that was an emphasis on social welfare and, in my humble opinion, the individuals. yes it is great to proclaim the 'culture of life' and bolstering forces to make abortion a 'prima facie' issue but the reactionary approach to combating abortion in the legal realm loses sight of the fact that people do not want to have children anymore. how do you fight a society entrenched in 'me, me, me'? its next to impossible.

but on a less serious note - i have proposed that the QSL get a tv, hook it up to the cable and follow the election of a new pope. Pope Watch 2005.

Monday, April 04, 2005


In action. Posted by Hello

welcome

i welcome myself to the world of blogging and thesis procrastination